I’m sorry, I didn’t know I was supposed to care

So yesterday, while I was waiting on the platform for my train to the office, one of the platform supervisors sidled up next to me and asked if everything was okay. He’s an older gentleman who I’ve chatted with before. I told him everything was fine, because it was, and he said I was looking a little “unconcerned” so he just wanted to make sure.

I couldn’t quite figure out why looking “unconcerned” was a bad thing. Because seriously, what do I have to be concerned about? My hair? Rent? Global warming? Doing my best to keep my nose from dripping down my face?

I’m still looking at you, Lindsey.

As a lot of people say all the time, just because I’m not smiling doesn’t mean there is something wrong. Sometimes I’m just thinking or concentrating on something. And sometimes I’m not thinking about anything. Like if you peered into my mind, it’d be dark because those synapses either decided to go off and play hooky from work or they are still hitting the snooze button on the alarm. Either way no one is there to process things.

Either way, I wasn’t in any mood. I actually didn’t feel like anything. It was the status quo.

So I was listening to the Sarah and No Name show on Alice yesterday morning and they had Yael Naim on [she sings “New Soul” that song in the iPod commercials] and she does a cover of Britney Spears’ “Toxic” and oh my goodness! She makes me no longer ashamed that I love the song so much! I mean, Brit’s version is fun, frothy pop stuff but Yael’s version makes it seem like there’s a lot more substance to the song. Like, she’s singing about an ex-boyfriend that she knows she shouldn’t be with but yet for some odd reason she keeps getting pulled back in. We all know that guy.

Anywho, so the gocco I had my eye on was not meant to be. While it ended up going for under $100, I just couldn’t convince myself that it was worth putting on my credit card at the moment, even though my personal maximum hadn’t been reached yet. It was a hard decision, especially since I had a break in my meeting with enough time to make a few last minute bids if I wanted but didn’t. This is me convincing myself I did a good thing financially. Especially since I just bought new hubcaps. Do I sound convinced yet?

But I am still emboldened with the hope and knowledge that I can get it for $100 or less, base price. I’m gonna win!

2 thoughts on “I’m sorry, I didn’t know I was supposed to care

  1. Mel says:

    I am so in love with all those VH1/Alice artists…Colbie, Sara, Justin, Yael, A Fine Frenzy. I am so ashamed…then again, we are finally in their official demographic, right?

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