For everything, its own season…

Posted on May 20, 2008 in Relationships | 4 comments

I made the executive decision last week [yes, on a whim] to start taking vitamins. I mean, why not? Taking the steps to be healthy doesn’t hurt at all. So I did a little poking around at all the vitamin offerings and decided to go for the Flintstones sour gummies.

I know there are plenty of vitamin supplements for adults and what not but have you seen the size of some of those pills? They’re huge and not at all tasty when chewed and in reality, why would you take something everyday if it was gross? I don’t see the logic so I went with the kid’s vitamins and I’m glad I did because they taste so good [I also saw they had gummy vitamins for adults but still went with Flintstones because they SPECIALIZE in making things yummy for kids] and honestly, I can’t wait for each morning so I can have some more. Which is really the point. If consuming too many vitamins in a short period of time wouldn’t cause any damage I’d probably already have downed half that bottle.

Moving right along, I found out another one of my former college roommates had recently gotten engaged! Yay! I’m really excited for her and I had a good chuckle thinking about how far we came from college. Man those were some days. She was a lot of fun to live with. I really lucked out with my roommates during college. I don’t have a single horror story to tell.

To be perfectly honest though, after it was all said and done, later that night I sat back and just thought about things and I was a little sad that it wasn’t me. And as soon as I had that thought I hung my head in shame. I never thought I’d become that person. I am sincerely happy for my friends who are engaged and married but seeing them in that new part of their lives reminds me of how much I want to start that part with the bf. And while I am starting to get frustrated with the seemingly never-ending long distance part of our relationship, I’m partly responsible for the extended time in relationship purgatory.

I know that it will happen for us when the time is right but I just wish I had somewhat of a clue as to when. And yeah, I’ll admit that I’m completely antsy about it now. I’m really feeling that When Harry Met Sally line: “when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.” I’m there, totally and completely there. I am also sad to announce that I slightly pouted and whined, “When will it be MY turn?!” Hey, if I can’t be honest here then I have serious issues. Sometimes I feel like Veruca Salt if only because I do sometimes feel like pouting and yelling things like, “BUT I WANT IT NOW!!!” Not that I’m proud of it; it’s just how I feel.

Now if only our current situations were there too, which is the frustrating yet easily fixable part, but has partly been my fault. I completely stalled at agreeing to be open to moving so in all reality, we could have been actually closer to an engagement than we currently are now. And again, this isn’t supposed to be some weird rush to an altar. I just want this sooo badly. But before I was able to push myself into a deep funk, I hear a very timely message at church. The title of the lesson was “Faith to endure to the end” and let me just say it gave me renewed hope to just keep plugging away. I know that God is answering my prayers when I asked that He send me the man that I’m to marry and that His timeline is a whole lot different than mine and the basic little fact that I can’t rush Him nor can I tell Him how to do His job. I know my place. But in it all, isn’t it amazing that we hear things when we need to? Seriously, it was as if the clouds parted and light shone down on me and He was all, “Look, you need to relax and calm down before you hurt yourself. I SAID I GOT THIS!!!”

Duly noted.

So now I’m back to being content and just a slightly bit antsy. But not anywhere near as close to as antsy as I was this weekend. I call that progress.

But dude, when it does happen, I’m gonna be all out of my mind giddy. I can’t wait!