Ahh, what to say. What.To.Say.
Well, there have been a few changes around these parts. Most of which were unwelcome and startling but that’s life, you know?
I guess I should start with the most interesting of stories. I do still have my L.A. trip to update you on [including a story how I sort of kinda got lost with a GPS unit. The moral of that story: CHECK YOUR ADDRESS!] and I will get to that because the pictures are so yummy looking that it would be a crime NOT to share. And in case you can’t wait, they’re posted on my Flickr account. Also my 10 year high school reunion happened after almost NOT happening, which is a painful story in and of itself that I will share. School is going well even with all the mad amounts of homework I have to do weekly and I have a trip planned for next month to visit the bf! Yay!
But I guess the biggest change is that I was laid off.
Yeah, that change sucked. But honestly, I’m okay. It’s not ideal but it happens [and unfortunately it happened to me]. The actual lay-off process sucked though. I wasn’t expecting it at all and I felt like I was hit by a bus when I heard the news. Its quite the shock to the system learning that you no longer have a job and despite my best efforts, I cried in that conference room. I tried so hard not to, especially not in front of my boss but I couldn’t help it. Then I sobbed to my mom when I called her as I left the office and then intermittently on that long BART ride home. To say I was devastated was an understatement of mass proportions.
What else can you do when you worked so hard to achieve your dream only to see it stopped short? Not to say that I’m done working in the industry. Far from it. I’ll be back and I’ll be going right to the top. I’m more determined than ever to figure out how to make that happen. Oh yeah. Because in the back of my mind, I want to be able to one day say, “Kids, don’t give up. Once upon a time I was laid off from this company. And now? I run it!”
But to be honest, I wouldn’t have been able to be so calm and at peace without God. Seriously. This is simply my own personal testimony but I’m at peace knowing that everything that happens will work for my good in the end. I’m trusting that He’s already planned for me and i just need to let it go and trust Him. We’ll see what my next path is. It’s really the only way I’d be able to talk about this without crying. In fact, I’m already at the point where I’m joking about it!
I do have a few options I’m working on and will be forging ahead with the full court press on the job search. Don’t cry for me, I’m not crying for myself.
All is well.